March 14, 2010

I have been having a rough go at it as of late. Feeling a bit sorry for myself I guess you could say. I miss my mom terribly and I am angry! Angry that she is gone! Angry that she didn't see me get married, have my child, be at my bridal shower. I'm especially angry that she isn't here with me while I'm going through the cancer thing. I hate it. And there is no one to blame and I hate that even more. I have been blessed with a wonderful husband and a beautiful little girl and I have the BEST friends a girl could ask for...unfortunately, none of that makes up for my mom being gone. And I am even madder that I have 4, yes I said FOUR, older sisters, and NONE of them have stepped up to be a "mother" figure for me. I know, I'm 30 years old and I should be able to handle it...well, I can't and I'm angry and I'm sad and I'm hurt...and most of all, I want my mommy!

Over a month...and no new posts!

Sorry about that! I've been crazy busy! I am planning scrap for a cure for the 5th year. And I am still dealing with some residual from the radiation. But I am getting back to my old self (emotion wise).

Anyway- just wanted to check in...and let you all know that things are crazy!!!!